drewkitty

I am just worn out from work. Weekends wind up mostly being me falling asleep sitting in my chair while I'm trying to accomplish pretty much anything. This job is too big for two people, it really needs three at least, and they all need to know what they're doing. I have spent most of this year with it being mostly me with one co-worker who should no longer be a rookie that I have to ride herd on because she continues to not remember things that are basic knowledge by now and makes mistakes daily. And have to handle all the VIP requests and such from the nurses and MDs, which is normally my Swifey's job and I don't have her experience, as well as try to keep up with my own usual duties. I'm more or less solo, with the addition of having to either clean up after my co-worker or have her clean up her mess and try to reframe once again whatever she's getting wrong in hopes of finding a way she'll remember so I can stop needing to ride herd on her every day. I want to do things and make things. I want to finish commissions, write the stories in my head, work on my personal projects. I do none of it because all my free time is spent resting, often involuntarily. I'll sit down for "a minute" to relax the arthritis and it's suddenly 2 hours later because I fell asleep sitting up in my chair without meaning to. It's so abrupt that it's like I blinked and the time just vanished in one blink. I don't know how much longer I can keep up this pace. Especially for a place that I used to love but has been pretty fucking toxic in the last couple months even while I'm trying to hold down a whole pod pretty much solo.